Times files and now it's the new year all over again!!
Resolution set for this year are:
1) saving of extra 10,000 for the year (almost impossible though)
2) start university
3) find some new jobs
4) look and hopefully be more professional/mature
This year really comes with a boom. Firstly, I got the news that my contract is going to end by December this year (2009). Also, I start to wonder if working life is really that easy. I want to be a really professional, well, as least look professional. So, I went shopping and bought clothes costing $100.. aww.. but it's still not enough. I only bought 2-3 shirts, 1 pants and they are consider quite cheapskate too. I'm still in severe lack of proper shoes, pants and bags.
Another bomb arrive from the workplace. My direct supervisior tells me to return to work in the micro lab after finally adapting to the work in research lab. It was when I finally had the chance to start my own experiment when I was told to come back. Quite disheartening. It was after months, months and months of waiting that I finally obtained a sense of achievement that I am able to do something big then they tell me to come back. Of course, that's bad news to me, or that's what I thought.
I was then told to learn everything that my colleague had learnt. Surprised and suspicious initially, but I shrugged it off as an opportunity that I am able to progress based on my own performance. And after that they even taught me stuff they didn't taught my colleague. Feeling uneasy, I taught that colleague what they have taught me to do also. (Am I stupid or naive, I don't know).
A supervisior called me and told me to go to help them. Therefore, I left the work to my colleage and went to help. but after informing my direct supervisior about this, I got scolded(=.=) for leaving the job I am supposed to do and give it to my colleague. my supervisor is right though. I am supposed to prioritized my work. And the bomb came, my that colleague resigned from her research work, and went further to work in a clinical lab.(somewhat promoted). and she never tell me. and let me teach her stuff when the "rule" is that training will be stopped for workers who tender resignation.
Deep down, I really felt that I'm cheated. Why did she not tell me that she got "promoted"? It's not as if it's something not to be told or some huge secret. In fact, it is a good thing isn't it. I soon doubt that if she acknowledge me as a friend. We have known each other for more than half a year. Maybe colleagues, no matter how close you are with them, it remains the fact that they are colleagues, not friend.
After being scolded by my direct supervisor, I was asked to go lunch together, 1 to 1. Well, for me, it's quite strange that I am looking forward to it. But since this is not the first time we are out together (strangely, it seems that I'm the one whom she go out 1 to 1 with often... hohoho.. But I'm not sure if that's a good thing. Maybe she went out with other people secretly too. Or maybe I got the facts wrong) but not exactly scared. During lunch, X told me about my flaws in personality. Like I'm too tactless, and too truthful, and maybe naive. Saying words without thinking. and X is actually correct in saying that, and I really appreciate X saying those stuff to me. And X teach me how to "behave" and work there, and taught me a few other basic stuffs. and this concludes the lunch.
So, in order to make up for the "wrong prioritization" I chiong throughout the day doing what I'm supposed to do. and got complimented, saying that I'm very fast in my work" by the DT and it was X who told me.. Well, that kind of good. But honestly, after understanding so many things, I being to understand the fact that one cannot take things on the surface. Maybe those words were said to bridge relationships well, or well, they hide the bad things about me too. Who knows.
One for fact is that actually X has the intention to promote me instead of my colleague. But because she works there before me, she cannot give it to me. and those X said so many of my flaws, she said I got good attitude and that what is important. (well, that's taking things from the surface again). and that once my contract is over she will "promote" me too if given the chance. but I'm told not to tell the other research colleagues. she said 人不为自， 天足地灭. Well, I supposed that's true. And if I tell, that's a betrayal of her trust of me too.
Apart from that work, for tuitioning hmm, everything seems to be okay but sometimes, it's really hard to teach students who do not want to learn. And sometimes, I wonder if it is me who is too boring, or my student is simply like that. Really don't like to teach that type of student, waste time and it's very stressing when the student cannot produce the results too. Well, it's either I expect too much of myself or the parents expect too much of me.
For part time job @ Bukit Timah is still very blur. My friend hasn't provide any information yet. haiizzz... I'm getting restless.. If this goes on, how can I save my $10,000!! I want money!!!! Shopping! Travelling! Eating! Throw money at peoples' face!
Conclusion : working life is really complicated.
